Stay with me on this. I do have a point. A little background first.
I went to the Doctor for migraines on the 16th and got a preventative and 3 different scripts for when it breaks through the prevent. The prevent is $88, the Doc appointment is $60. I have no insurance.
Another bit of background. The migraine stopper the Doc wants me to have, 2 of them, are $500, monthly. I had a Doc appointment tomorrow.
So little brother is pretty much back to himself. Yay. Really. I am so happy for him. He has like 4 more out patient appointments in Winterhaven I have to take him to then he is done.
Yesterday though I noticed something. Apparently I cant be myself around family. Its starting to happen around my brother and Mom. We were sitting having lunch (im on a diet, they both know, and she keeps trying to bring me all this stuff, taco bell, huge sub)and they asked if i would go riding around the lake on the bike mom just bought for me. I said no because I am almost at the end of my preventatives and cant go to the next dr app so I dont know when I will be able to get them again and since I know what affects my head i am staying out of light and heat as much as possible.
They go into the the well if you try this and this and this bull shit. You know damn it, you think I haven't tried that? I have been to the gym every morning this week. Im working on my weight. I know Im fat, I know what I am but according to the Doctor WHICH your NOT its genetics not my fat ass. I guess me living far away has given them the opinion of me that I am always so happy. I don't know. I have no friends here. None. The only person I had to vent to was my Mom and that was altered when she and my Dad divorced. From then on I could only vent about anything but myself.
I dont really know what the point of this post is other than just a pity party. I have something to drive until my car is fixed and I am taking back Ex1 for the amount of child support he is suppose to be paying. My bills are paid in full. I think its the fact that I can't be myself around them anymore. Any time I get upset or angry or distant or anything other than happy they blame it on the migraine med's when all it is is me just dropping the front. Lil Bro knows i've been diagnosed as depressed. Well I guess I should say knew, even though he only doesn't remember the day of, and previous day of the accident.
I Guess this is how it will be know. Today was the first day of one of my Moms day off that she didn't call or come over. I. Well, either way things need to be done. I need to find money to pay the double price I will need to pay stepdad for cost & install on the car, and I have got to find an outfit for Ley for her first Chorus recital on the 16th!!!!
Hopefully more things will be solved tomorrow.
I went to the Doctor for migraines on the 16th and got a preventative and 3 different scripts for when it breaks through the prevent. The prevent is $88, the Doc appointment is $60. I have no insurance.
Another bit of background. The migraine stopper the Doc wants me to have, 2 of them, are $500, monthly. I had a Doc appointment tomorrow.
So little brother is pretty much back to himself. Yay. Really. I am so happy for him. He has like 4 more out patient appointments in Winterhaven I have to take him to then he is done.
Yesterday though I noticed something. Apparently I cant be myself around family. Its starting to happen around my brother and Mom. We were sitting having lunch (im on a diet, they both know, and she keeps trying to bring me all this stuff, taco bell, huge sub)and they asked if i would go riding around the lake on the bike mom just bought for me. I said no because I am almost at the end of my preventatives and cant go to the next dr app so I dont know when I will be able to get them again and since I know what affects my head i am staying out of light and heat as much as possible.
They go into the the well if you try this and this and this bull shit. You know damn it, you think I haven't tried that? I have been to the gym every morning this week. Im working on my weight. I know Im fat, I know what I am but according to the Doctor WHICH your NOT its genetics not my fat ass. I guess me living far away has given them the opinion of me that I am always so happy. I don't know. I have no friends here. None. The only person I had to vent to was my Mom and that was altered when she and my Dad divorced. From then on I could only vent about anything but myself.
I dont really know what the point of this post is other than just a pity party. I have something to drive until my car is fixed and I am taking back Ex1 for the amount of child support he is suppose to be paying. My bills are paid in full. I think its the fact that I can't be myself around them anymore. Any time I get upset or angry or distant or anything other than happy they blame it on the migraine med's when all it is is me just dropping the front. Lil Bro knows i've been diagnosed as depressed. Well I guess I should say knew, even though he only doesn't remember the day of, and previous day of the accident.
I Guess this is how it will be know. Today was the first day of one of my Moms day off that she didn't call or come over. I. Well, either way things need to be done. I need to find money to pay the double price I will need to pay stepdad for cost & install on the car, and I have got to find an outfit for Ley for her first Chorus recital on the 16th!!!!
Hopefully more things will be solved tomorrow.
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